feeling negative anticipation of babysitting again tomorrow. somewhat stems from "mommy" game of previous two days but also just a bit tired in general. tgif.
g [7/31/2003 11:05:00 PM]
i want to understand criminals the way Hannibal does. Then I want to use that knowlege to heal them. Because if the meaning of life is happiness, and I tend to think so, then they are doing something wrong because they are creating so much anti-happiness, so much pain and sadness. But ... in the end ... the pain they create can further create happiness, acheivement, the glorious feeling of overcoming pain. So it's right? Can I really believe that? But I think along with happiness, as the meaning of life, are love and peace - so I'm a hippy, so shoot me - and they are disrupting those, too. But aren't they creating more in the long run? Isn't peace sweeter after a long, hard war? Isn't love stronger when it's being threatened?
g [7/23/2003 11:55:00 AM]